What is up my dearest faithful readers! Last week was my spring break. As some of you have probably known, it was something pretty phenomenal ( i cant spell this word ).....I went to Austin for the band festival called SXSW-South by SouthWest...okay, i know you guys dont know...i didnt know either..i just followed people around.... So, i went with this " special" bunch of friends of mine. ( background of these people : UNT students, Texas locals, marijuana addicts ==> typical college kids ) As u all know, im totally not against pot heads..i dont smoke up but i occassionally accept the offers within my limit. ( that means i dont smoke but i smoke if 10 other ppl in the house smoke..yes..i am a victim of peer pressure ) Spring break is the week of glory..in which case college students seize the chance to get as fucked up as they could. basically....and that spirit was very much realized by these people in our spring break austin trip. I had one of my worst days there in a friend's apartment. I was sober and sad when the others were high/drunk and happy. It was a very surreal feeling and I found myself being in a bizzard aura...I cant explain..but its like being inside a bubble that is transparent but the objects outside the bubble seem blurry in the matter of shape but not color. It wasnt that unpleasant but just bothered me. The band festival was awesome though. I wish i knew the schedule of the bands that played my type of music so I could go check. The whole time in Austin, I was being a stupid ass follower. I hated the feeling of walking behind and not knowing what was going on. I knew they wouldnt have noticed even if i wasnt behind them cuz they didnt bother to look behind to check on me...No big deal...im an adult. Got back to dorm last friday..was happy to see isabella ( my danish woman ) and other friends.. went to iHop to get pancakes to release my worry and fear remaining from the dangerous ride with drunk and high drivers. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ That was about spring break. Time's been passing by so fast..its already the middle of the semester... Come to think about it, i'll be leaving this school, or this town, or even this state in 7 weeks or so.. So whatever happens that I think I just cant take, is eventaully going to an end. Plus, everything hasnt been so bad. In fact, it has been pretty smooth.. I have to say Im doing pretty well in class. Partly becuz Im familiar with the material since Im taking all music courses, and the fact that I study actually does help me get good grades ( duh ) Being in a foreign country forces me to learn to spend time with myself. Although Im with friends most of the time. Everyone belongs to some place, some group, somewhere. When Im thrown here, I have to find some place and some group and somewhere to belong to. It hasnt been too difficult. Just the sense of belonging is notthing compared to my old belongings. ( which are you and home ).. It is going to sound cheesy but to be myself is really the only thing that puts me on track here. ( okay, i dont really know what im trying to say but im hoping it somehow makes a little sense ) I guess the reason i feel so much lately is cause last week was really the week of nolstagia. ( to the contrary of the week of glory ).. The people i went to Austin with, they've been friends forever..I am sort of like a visitor to their group, or a stranger to their bond. As much as I appreciated their kindness for accepting me and treating me good, all i could think of during the whole time was to be able to hang out with MY friends and do it OUR way. I guess if there was no excessive marijuana use involved, I wouldnt have felt the same, or as extreme. Cause I was 80% sober and didnt want to ruin their festive atmosphere. I wanted to remain cool! Because I am cool!

Its been a while since i last updated before i notice, its already been 2 months since i got here. i assume none of your lives has any major difference living without me, but im sure you guys all miss me. Id love that. :) First thing first. So, school's been pretty alright...Basically i have to practice a lot becuz my teacher would randomly inform me to attend my private lesson like two days before. that means i have to be practicing constantly in order to reach the objectives. so far i've already finished a whole sonata and two other small pieces...i think thats pretty much something i can call an accomplishment. So yeah, ive been hanging out on weekends a lot...and doing bad shit...hehehhe..well, not really bad shit...just basically drinking and chilling..and sometimes something more powerful..such as ..u know what it is. but im in control so just relax yall. and about guys..its neccessary to calm down a little. definitely. meanwhile meeting people..being smart..hopefully i know what im doing. special thanks to irene for the notes. muahz