it is all meant to be.

i deserve it. i should just mourn.

but what did i ever do to deserve this

i know this is life. what comes around goes around. what was urs doesnt always have to be urs.

all i ever wanted is to feel attached. is to feel needed. is to feel loved. is to feel secured.

all i ever had was uncertainty. complication. immaturity. misunderstanding.

of course everyone deserves happiness.

and from the bottom of my heart i wish u all happy.

but deep down i know i deserve it more than you do. maybe?

tragedy keeps happening and i keep hurting

i open my arms and all i get to hug is the air

i close my eyes and all i get to feel is despair

i stop hoping somehow

but i still want to be surprised

wrong timing, wrong person, wrong place, wrong life?

appreciate me i know u do

loved me? i know u have.

i do and i have as well

just that

i dont think i deserve to be alone

i dont think anyone does

but why me